Once a happy time

Fate? What is Fate?

Is it fate that I meet you? to be together? to leave ? I will always remember how i won your heart, and remember what i have done over my temper, and how sorry i am. Our time was so fast, can't believe everything is ruin. Words are hard to describe, but if don't express it, it will stuck inside of me forever.

We were not friends, but just strangers who may misunderstood each other when we first met. But fated, bring us together, I meet you again after some time, and you look dazzling, i can't stop looking at you, I was fascinated.

After spending some time with you, i can't imagine that i am slowly falling madly in love with you, words can't describe how I felt about you.

After the incident, i wanted to reach you so many times now or in the future, but if i don't have the chance in this lifetime, i hope there's a chance we meet again in the next life and pray we have a happy ending.

Are you happy now? Does he call you before you sleep? Does he think of you every time like i do? Most importantly, does he really love you more than i do? You should know my personality. I've loved you before and will always love you deep inside my heart.

To be honest, I was sad that you stated that you love me for life. But its no one faults that we can't last a life time, its just wrong timing that we met, i really hope that we could meet later in life, so we can grow old with each other.

Love is just so unpredictable, we were so in love and now this, we would probably remember for the rest of our life. Remember we separate so many times before? I have always told myself that we will be together no matter what. We have know each other so well, how could we be separate, i though u were the one i love for the rest of my life. All i am doing right now is to erase everything from my life, how foolish and cruel life can be, it crushes my heart over and over again whenever i think of both of us together.

No matter how much i blame myself, it just too late. I wish i have realized my flaws earlier, and could have change it, for the better. But i appreciated the times we spend together, only the good ones, and not the bad.

If this ever reaches you in years, a decade or even in heaven. Please know one thing, i was a completely jerk to break your hears so many times. Please forgive me for my childish act.

Please remember the times that I hold your hands in the cinema and we were like newlyweds in our singapore trips, it was one of the best memories of my life.

I have nothing to ask in my life, but please please, wherever you think of me for the slightest time, it will be a good memory between us.

I pray that you found someone who will never break your heart like me. Our love taught me to appreciate the things i had, and many more.

How wonderful when i call you my dearest, and yet how sorrowful that you are not mine any more. I am grateful for you in my life, and the love will be cherish forever as long i am a live. You are a important part of my life, i will never forget the short time that i have been with you.

Above all, i wish you always be happier than me. Then i can be in peace for the rest of my life.

And if we do cross path in the future, i hope you will see me as a better person.

Will miss you and please take care yourselves. Amen

Its been a while

It's been a long time since we've really talked and I miss you. I miss the times and everything we had. I want you back in my life 'cause it's great having a friend like you.

I know I acted mad and dumb while we were going out but so did you. If I could turn back time I would make things right. I heard some stuff and I let that get to my head. I wasn't mature enough back then to go up to you and talk things out with you. Instead I acted like a little girl by ignoring you when you would try to talk to me. I'm sorry for hurting you.

Well, I don't know if you care now or if you've lost feelings for me... I don't know how you feel. My feelings for you are still the same and memories don't erase, they stay with me.

Now I realize that it's true; you really don't ever know what you've got till you lose it. I lost you and if there was any way I could talk to you again I would, but you seem to have forgotten about me and you'll probably never read this, but this how I feel and I miss you.

I look around me, and I can’t believe that you’re not here. The world feels so dark and empty without you. Even going for a good lunch, i won't feel the same anymore, cause no one is sharing with me like u do .

When I remember how angry I got over what you said, I can hardly believe it now. I was mad, but that anger wasn’t worth any of this. I am sorry for all the small matter, that i took anger towards u , i regretted every since :(

When I think of the jokes to made me smile, i jus laugh right now and at the same time in tears and how your smile just lit up the whole room, I can barely remember the reason we’re fighting now.

I understand if you are sad inside (sorry) , but I want you to know that if you call or show up, I’ll drop whatever I’m doing so we can work this out. No matter how long it take , i will stand besides u , no matter what, i love u

Random

The Champions League Final Barcelona Vs Man Utd 2-0 :) Before the match, i wake up several times, because i was worry, scared, have feeling of a bad omen. I was thinking Barcelona will lose, Man Utd is too strong, but I was wrong, BARCELONA WON. The Team Won in style.............. Barcelona dominate the match after ten minutes, and Man Utd doesn't stand a chance against MY TEAM. Happy go lucky. My friends keep telling me that Man Utd going to trash Barcelona, Who is talking now.......lol. I LOVE BARCELONA

My friend's graduated from CIMP Taken a few photo of my friends, before they leave.......SAD. Thubha i will miss you man........Always have fun with you, good luck in Australia Sam the guy who is stronger than me.......lol. Take care and all the best in Australia too. Tracy, no comment, get to see you everyday anyway. Lastly a post for the Korean girl, Jessica Kim Hye Ji. Favourite quatoes: What~~~~~~~,No~~~~~~~~~~~, ARRGGG~~~~~~, Tommya~~~~~ and others ( too much) Good luck everyone and all the best. You too J.e.s.s.i.c.a, still owe me korean lunch...... see you soon, hope you go monash.

Never regret what I did!

If anyone knows me well enough, i never regret what i did, cause what i did or have done, there is a reason behind it. So for the person who have been bad mouthing me all the time, can you please stop the childishness. Telling people who i don't even know, about shit things about me, telling people to threaten me in MSN (do you think i will be scare, i am not like YOU, i got guts to do things, unlike you, being fake all the time, and you know you are). You are just a liar, i pity and despise you. During this months, i ignored what you told my friends about me, and honestly this have to stop, cause your just making it worse with your big disfigure mouth ( quickly go do operation :) I am pround of being myself, and i will still miss someone dearly no matter what, call me studpid, i don't care. I know you are telling everybody about the incident, but who cares. Keep continue this if you want, it will not affect me anyway, i don't even know the person, people who knows me, they know i am not FAKE, thats enough for me.

Good bye my friend
Take care my friend, this will be the 5 th time i will send you to the airport. I will miss you........

Tag by Gan Bee Kee

Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 5 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Crazy stuff u did before.
I think was acting as a gay and play a fool with a person that is gay.....lol.

2. most regrettable incident.
Past is past

3. If you are given a chance to reverse your life,will you back to the past ?
Yes, i will. cause can prevent the regrettable incident.lol

4. What would u do if u were to die tomorrow ?
I will do what ever i want
I will do whatever i want, and will not regret anymore

5. Is there someone in your heart right now ?
I am not sure....... too complicated.... but most probably no

6. Do you feel loved in this world ?
No, i feel there is more hate and evil in this world

7. What are you afraid to lose the most ?
Everything that i care

8. What do you feel like doing right now ?
Blogging

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her ?
Yes, but i need to be very sure, do not want to have to love someone not worth

10. List 5 things that u like in a guy/girl.
same like Gan bee kee........lol

11. What are the requirements that you not wish from your other half?
to lie, cheat or do anything behind my back

12. What do you think is your purpose in life?
to be kind

13. Do you feel like killing someone at the moment?
yeah, Azrool

14. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Happy

15. Do you want to be in a relationship?
Only when the right time and person

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
To be less nice.....lol

17. What is the most prized possession that you wish you can bring to Heaven?
my soul only i can gave to heaven

18. Name one love song that you have in mind and why?
Wonder girls- nobody

19. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
being polite to girls ONLY.....lool

20. Does true love exist?
For me, yes, but we need to find the right person and not fooling around with ppl.

I tag: no one.lol

A test

This a test that i took, its like a psychological test that my friend gave it to me, here are the results.......lol......to be honest, it is quite true..... really hard to believe.


Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Primary Reunion 6N

It has been 7 years that i left my primary schools..........

I did not miss much about my primary life, because i got a lot of bad memories there. For example, got whacked by the teachers there.........lol. But after a few years and now going to University, i start missing those times that i play all those childish games when i was a child.
This is my classmate for 6 years, we were celebrating children day

Oh My God, how i miss children days........lol. But what i miss the most is my friends there. During the years, I only saw some of my primary mates that lives near my area. The others i have not contact in years.........SAD.

Actually there is a reunion earlier, but i did not attend, because i am busy that time about certain things. And this year, there is another reunion for our class 6N.

I saw my friends , and i were very surprise that they all grow up and such....... Some I forget their names and some i do not expect that they change so much...... They said i change, talk more now compare to last time......lol. I also saw my form teacher for 6 years..... and she still our name list after all these year....During the time she teach, many things happens, but i know she loves us very much.

Here are the pics........




GOING TO MISS YOU GUYS.....AND ALL THE BEST FOR THE FUTURE

My gym story

Holidays is bored

Holidays is relaxing

Holidays is fun

Holidays is tiring

Holidays is........

I have been thinking of holiday is this and that, but after i realize, holidays is coming to an end.

SAD

This few days went to the gym with my gyms buddy( Bryan, Keng Gein, Leng lui Michelle and Cindy)

My gyms buddy said i have become a monster since the days i join the gym and i ask them why. I was curious why they said that, when i was lifting 170 kg for my squat and 80 kg bench press. Pretty Heavy right? LO quite arrogant...........but you need to think, i was a kid that can't even do a single push up back in those days....... can't even run.........SAD. You think when a kid was playing cat and mouse, who always lose huh......lol.

To be honest...... i have met some great people in the gym.
We can said that we click just the moment we meet......lol.

I first met Michelle..... Never imagine that she is so pretty right now..........lol. Oh by the way, her body is now totally nice and sexy. Damm sound so perverted. Swt.

Hope to continue fitness first for many more years to come. But now, damm tired, ciao